Heart Song

There was a song I had long forgotten

or not forgotten but locked away.

Your carelessly hummed tune
caused my heart to wake.

Your touch, your eyes, your knowing smile.

You always know the end of every game we play.

You won my heart with your gaze.

Your eyes are life

Of green growing things and faerie dreams

Your smile lifts my heart strings.

These days,

All I long for is to touch your face.

To bathe your tresses and

 run fingers through.

My desires lie above.

My desire is you.

Those days,

I only stayed above water.

Any deep depth chilled

& caused  bones to shake.

Those days,

I could not meet your eyes.

Those days in the past,

I told only lies;

Go away I don’t want you do not speak to me

These days, I fear

-but fear is nothing new to me

I will drown in fear if it will bring me closer to you, as

A day without you is what I have grown used to.

But nothing need remain the same.

Nothing gold or black can stay.

We can try to be close again.

Your song opens me through and through

I know you KNOW me

As I KNOW you.

We are foolish to deny it, to fight  or hide it.

Do you not understand yet?

This song between us, in our bones and souls

Is not one long forgotten or  denied.

We can ignore and hope it fades,

But life’s shores  bring us to each other’s doors.

The wind carries our songs to each other’s ears, and

The  bubbling rushing river carries our dreams and fears.

Our hearts  ache when the other’s in pain.  

 But black hearts will part.

Only love remains.

Image Source: 'Heart Song' by Dave Moilanen

My Heart's Delight

A bright sunflower blooms in the arctic night

Golden bloom haloed in its own light
with a sweet smile that melts the tundra snow

and causes my heart to warm and glow

My heart’s delight

Sings the song that soothes my soul

Has the heart I long to know

Has the body I long to hold

And the eyes that make me speak soft and low

A window that lets true beauty show;

The light that makes flowers grow. 

You are Sweet in Fantasy

You are only for my fantasies
Just for my dreams

There is no chance for us
in stark reality

Trust is the timid pet staying for breakfast
then running away

Desire-the sad, pale clouds of nostalgia

Love is the ghost moon
disappearing by noon.
No us exists by light of day.

We believe in nothing we say
My heart is heavy but doesn't ache
My heart is lonesome, but okay.

You are sweet in fantasy
By noon, I want you dead.

Image Source: Two Blue Fantasy Planets

Nostalgic Desire

Nostalgic Desire

My fantasies are dark, dirty
greasy bubbles breaking
over sewer water

Drifting flesh-colored clouds in mind
Pulsing, wet firm pelvic arm
Squirting frenzy and earthquake

Oh, King Volcano
Why do this to me again?

You step forward, then back
I turn the corner, and

Poof!

You are gone
Purple shadows stain the wall

You were there, now gone
You smiled, now frown
You looked into my eyes

Now turn your gaze away
And stay locked and looking
Miles from me

A day without you
Is what I have grown used to
Your hair, your skin,
A fading gray haze

Your thoughts, your words
No longer touching

Your hands have fallen off
Your limbs are tied
You are a sunken stone

Far deep down in
the black ocean
Like sunken treasure
Never to be found

Or like trash rusting
deep underground

I haven't decided
A lifetime is not worth it

Dredging you up from the deep
One second is not worth this thought
Or anything with you in between.

Image Source: Disturbet's Toxic Love

Ocean Wind

The wind is violent,
Knocking, flapping and rustling,
Slapping, tumultuous
Rolling like waves
I am swept
Savoring the mad sea-breeze
Savoring life
Rolling the sweetness on my tongue
Palm fronds slap delicious
A storm is brewing
Ocean spray spits smartly
Birds give way
Mother Nature is respected here
Nothing is contained
To the Queen we all bow and give way
Glance furtively under slit lids
Perhaps her wake, her eye will pass us by
With no more than a slap or tweaked cheek
Her notice, her scornful gaze
Can turn our hearts to waste
Our lives to dust
Our ocean mother laughs at the weak
Barricade of glass
Her tinkling laughter can shatter dreams
But oh, her majesty
What glorious banners she weaves
To trail her horizon is fool’s folly
Her train may wreck,
Her abuses bruise us
But to behold her wake, her glory
Her tresses, her face
Risking defeat and death is
A small price to pay
Surfing the wind, surfing the sun
After all nothing remains the same-
And my life is but a mere passing dust speck
In the mote of her eye
Keep me here fair queen
Bowed by your feet
Please don’t rub me out-just yet
All sadness departs when I hear your music
In the rustling flapping of leaves
The ocean roars and thunder booms
Your symphony oh sweet dear
Your symphony this day
So priceless to pay
Melon rolls sweetly on my tongue
Drops of honey linger-a tart tang
Like a mermaid lying beached upon the sand
Gathering in the ancient hush of the sea
These rumblings of the planet
Sea spray bathing my face
Foam like the spurts of cum
From a loved one
Lovers embrace
The rhyme and song is ancient
I feel a soft hush rumbling lullaby
Sea song siren cry
The rhythm and lull
The beat like sex
An orgasmic crescendo
Again and again-my heart beats in rhythm to hers
The goddess of the sea
Surfing the sun, surfing the wind
Rays like waves splash my face.

Love is Too Hard

Love is too hard for me

It panics me
I can not breathe

My heart races and leaps

from my chest

Run away!
Get away!

Never look back.

My heart pivots and fidgets
and waits...

wanting you

to beg me to stay

to hold me close
to whisper and warm

Never let go.

But love is too hard for me

I can not accept this

Novel Sensation

I am not sure it is real

or Illusion

Can I touch it?
See it?
Smell or taste it?

My heart is shut away

locked in a box

made of ice

I want your love to melt away.

img src= 'Ice Heart' by B. Niro

There is No Resurrection

There is no resurrection
I need to bury and walk away
In the aftermath of an electric storm
White, fuzzy, slow memory
Grey ash on tongue from
The burned words of a lost year
There is no resurrection
Only nostalgic desire
As faded memories caress
Like ghost butterflies
Turning turning to dust
A funeral and burial
Walking away feeling light on my face
Today is the truth,
Yesterday an empty memory
A fallen star, a forgotten dream
A passing friend passes
Barely there and now gone
There is no resurrection.

Purging

Fading faces of quiet moon and blazing sun
Drown and die beneath the ocean

A distraction
Of titillating scenes
Neon lights and quivering skin
A pink wet road of empty fantasy

Green fog blankets mind
Making the great booming dirge of the day
Easier to tolerate

Cold shadow walls surround
Alone, arms outstretched
Only silence is found

Everyone and everything is only
Fluff and pompery
All cease to matter
Falling off the edge of the cliff
To nowhere

Claws pluck like the strings of a harp
And rusted swords are pulled from pale heart.